Episode Six: Why should you take a break?

As I said in my last post, I needed a break. Life is stressful enough without COVID-19 knocking on your door. In today’s episode I go a little bit more into why I needed a break and I talk a little bit about the benefits of taking one yourself.

While you can hear the storm thundering in the background, and I can’t stay on topic to save my life, this episode is to serve as a reminder to all that sometimes you just need to slow down. After you give this episode a listen please leave a comment sharing what ways you make time for small breaks in your life.

Time for a Come Back

Sometime in March, right when all of this COVID 19 stuff started to really hit Arkansas I had minor melt down. I has a lease that was about to run out, friends and family who could die from this disease, and a job in the food industry. I wasn’t sure if I was going to be working or even able to have a stable roof over my head. That with a mixture of my therapy getting deeper and deeper into my PTSD caused me to be overwhelmed with everything.

The easy solution to this was to cut out “unnecessary” things to reduce my personal work load and ease my stress in any areas that I could. Which meant that I had to give up my beloved podcast for a short amount of time. On March 14th I made a tweet about what was going on and then just kind of disappeared while I tried to get my life back together. Luckily I was able to keep my job, find a new place to stay, and I have yet to lose any loved ones to this pandemic.

With the recent BLM marches, and a little bit of a push from friends and family, I have decided it’s time to get back to work! The Gift Of Dysfunction will have a new episode, all on the mental benefits of taking a break, coming out next Friday, July 3rd. In addition, Ive decided it’s time to bring back The Empathy Bug.

The Empathy Bug was my first podcast, and it was dedicated to bringing empathy into the world. The problem was I didn’t have a clear picture of how to do that and I kind of burnt myself out before I really even got started. With the current events going on in America I had an idea. Why not use that platform to educate those on past and current events that have caused suffering. In order to truly understand what a person is going through you have to know where they are coming from, learning their story is the easiest way to do that.

As a white woman who can’t go out to protests because of my mental illnesses, there are a few things I feel like it’s my duty to do in order to help give a voice to those who are begging to be heard. One, is to vote… But that’s obvious. The second, is to speak out in daily life. And the third, is to use what ever platforms I have to give a voice to the stories that are swept over and ignored. I’m going to try and do just that with The Empathy Bug, and if I can help just one person understand why we need a change in our system I will have done my job.

But, I know that’s not why you follow this blog. This podcast and blog is about mental health, and while the world around you does greatly affect that, it’s not something that everyone wants to think about when learning how to cope. So I promise that outside of this post explaining my actions I will not cross the topics again. Anyone who wants to hear me stand on my soap box and preach about basic human rights is more than welcome to tune in on July 10th when I relaunch my old podcast.

Thank you all so much for sticking with me while I was gone these past few months. This break has given me time to clear my head and really get a grasp on what I want to do with my podcasting career and my future. I love you all and I will see you next week.

Episode Five: What is PTSD?

Trigger Warning: This episode mentions suicide and rape.

For as long as I can remember I’ve been struggling with depression and mental illness. I honestly thought it was normal for everyone to want to die all the time, because it seemed to me like everyone in my life was unhappy. It wasn’t until I got out into the real world that I truly started to understand just how insane my life was.

Around the age of 23 I was diagnosed with PTSD, among other things. It was here that I started realizing how much of my daily life was being effected by trauma I had gone through. It was here that my healing journey began.

In this episode of The Gift of Dysfunction I’m going to explain a little bit more about the trauma I went through, as well as what exactly PTSD is. This was not an easy episode for me to record so I do apologize if I’m all over the place. Regardless, give it a listen and let me know what you think!

Episode 4: What are the 5 Love Languages?

I know, Valentine’s day is all about couples, right? For those single people out there it’s got to get annoying quickly! So even though this episode is coming out on Valentine’s Day I didn’t want today’s episode to be only about couples, though I do touch on the subject a little bit. I know that I don’t just have couples listening to my podcast and I want to make sure that everyone can relate to every episode, at least in some way.

So what subject did I pick to unite us all together? The 5 Love languages! I know, that sounds like a couples only topic, but it’s really not. You may not realize it but use your love language every day to communicate self love, your friends, co-workers, family, and even strangers. In today’s episode I’m going to explain how knowing your love language will help you show love to yourself in a deeper way.



Episode Two: What is Autophobia?

On today’s episode of The Gift of Dysfunction I talk about a phobia that I’ve struggled with for a long time, autophobia, the fear of being alone. This anxiety disorder is the irrational fear of being alone, unloved, and or unwanted.

I started showing symptoms of this phobia as a teenager, never wanting to fully be alone and clinging to my boyfriend as much as possible. As I got older this lead me into abusive relationships, bad situations, and someone being a workaholic. Through a lot of hard work I’ve gotten a hundred times better than I used to be, but I still have a ways to go before I’m done with this phobia for good.

If you think you might, or know someone who might, have autophobia please encourage them or yourself to speak to a therapist and get help today!

Episode one: What is Dysfunction Anyway?

Skip all of the reading and click here to dive in.

I’m so excited about this episode. Not only am I discussing one of my favorite topics, but this is the first stepping stone for a successful podcast. It can’t be a success if I never publish an episode, right? New year, new podcast!

This episode is all about what Executive Dysfunction is and how it can change your life. I explain what Executive Function is, as well as give a few examples so you can tell if Dysfunction is affecting your life. I also tell you a little bit about me and my story with this symptom.

If you liked what you heard, or didn’t, be sure to let me know either in the comments of this post or on any of our social media platforms. Thank you for listening and I’ll see you again on Wednesday for my first book review of 2020.



What is this blog about?

Hello and welcome to the official blog for the podcast The Gift of Dysfunction podcast. This is a podcast all about mental health, with stories and tips to help you feel a little less alone. I, Alexandria Fitzgerald, mostly talk about Executive Dysfunction and my other mental illnesses. However, no mental health issue is off the table.

This blog serves as a space for me to update y’all on the podcasts progress, share a text version for our deaf friends, and include stories that may not get told otherwise. Our first episode, “What is Executive Dysfunction Anyways?” will be up this Friday, January 3rd. Be sure to follow us on Spotify and be one of the first to tune in!